intimacy with God

pastor have been preaching about intimacy with God these 2 weeks and it was also when i started to really make the effort to get close to Him like when i just knew Him. i have thought of doing it for a long time but thinking and not doing is equivalent to nothing. so this time is different.. i started doing it and wanted it to last.

i have tried to read His word daily, pray/ talk to Him.. praise and worship Him. doing this everyday out of love and definitely not duty, have make me happier, feel that there's somebody close to me again and when i pray to Him in times of needs, i wouldn't feel so guilty (cuz it just feels like i chunked Him aside when i dun need Him and beg and keep praying for Him to make things go my way wheni needed it). and it's the joy that is inside of me.. hmm. i just love it.

but as said, things are easier when life's peaceful, but when troubles comes in.. it is only when true love shows..

i pray that i can keep it.. 'passing' the test that came my way.. for to sidetrack is easy but to pick up the good habit is harder.

yay. time for bed now.. super duper late..
nite nite.. z z Z

I love YOU

wow wow wow... ytd was a wonderful day i would say..

to start with the fact that i have found a new game of naruto. it's www.naruto-arena.com if u a;; are interested. haha.

it's a game where u choose any 3 of available ninja and fight with an unknown opponent. then there's also mission.. it's tough though.. and really tested a lot of my patience. cuz it requires us to use a certain ninja to win certain number of times IN A ROW!! that's the toughest part.. and the most irritating also.. cuz my max is 3.. and the last required ones i didn't manage to make it.. it's been more than once.. a few times.. u know.. it's kind of like gong(1) kui(1) yi(2) kui(4). just one more round i can complete.. but time and again.. it's a wasted effort..

then here's when my testimonies comes in.. once again, i'm at my fourth round.. that deciding whether i can complete my mission round.. and to summarize it.. i obviously would loss the game.. but this time i was so not wanting to lose again as i was quite frustrated by it. Then i remembered pastor preached before.. David (i think.. hehe.. if i'm not wrong.. or "someone" heh sorry) was at loss and didn't know what to do in a battle (for my the battle is the game).. but he won the battle in the end. how? All he did was to continue praise and worship Him.

and this is also how i actually how i know that it's definitely possible or a weakling to defeat a strong and mighty giant if God is with the person (i used to think a lot on how it is possible but now, i convinced)..

though it's just a game (naruto), i really did learn a lot. and also have to keep reminding myself constantly that God is not a (game)winnning machine. which links to we are the servants of God, not vice versa..

and Amen to pastor's saying: we desire more of God when risk/insecurity level is high. as it make us more dependable on Him.

Hallelujah! Thank You Jesus
i love You for You have loved me first. =)

Kiba

i have this very sudden feeling. i dun know why but this thought just keep coming to my mind. haha. as if it would come true.. well, i just strongly hope it would....

the thought is that 'if i have a dog, i would name it Kiba'
haha. really random right? i thought so too.

kiba is one of the character's name in naruto's anime. lol. he has a dog.. name akamaru. buti'm using his name if i have a dog instead.. haha. i find kiba quite cool..

so with this weird thought keep coming to my mind, i think something weird might happened.

and it really happened. i was chatting with jasmine. wanting to find out what class she's in. then she told me that we can check who's our IEF teacher already.. i heart pounded like crazy. literally. and keep the story short, it really turns out to be that K.P.T. !!!

well, there's still weeks to start of school. we'll see till then..

ehh.. like that means i won't get a pet dog ar.. T_T